“What are you doing this weekend?”
My friend asked me that when we were grabbing coffee this morning. And honestly? I had no response. Which really threw me for a loop because usually I’d either 1) be doing something with a boyfriend or 2) be going on a date.
Aka every weekend of my adult life has centered around dating.
Aka I have never ONCE had a weekend where I wasn’t thinking about where I should go or what I should do to find a guy.
And when I realized that, I was like whoa. That is not how I want to be living my life. I’m not going to look back and think wow I’m so glad I spent five years of my life, five years of weekends, going on dates that I usually didn’t really want to go on or getting drunk at bars just to meet people who didn’t even align with my soul.
So this weekend is really the first weekend in many many years where I’m taking back the power. I get to decide what I want to do. And not what I want to do in order to meet someone. But what I actually want to do.
It feels foreign as hell but also incredibly freeing! I haven’t decided exactly what my plans are but isn’t that the beauty of it all? I can finally choose how I spend my time, whether it’s going to yoga or just laying on the couch with a good book.
Side note: I’m also thinking about going to a sound bath for the first time just because I think it sounds so freaking cool and I’ve never gotten around to it because there were always dates to go on or things I should be doing instead (eye roll). But there’s one at a studio near me this weekend and I’m sooooo interested. So stay tuned for that experience!